How to afford life

I worry sometimes about life. Everything has a price tag on it, even the feree things cost something.
How can I manage when I am all aone, no body, nothing helps. We all just shifting around the burden of expense.Couples shift it together.
Everyne ignores the things they can't have the small daily expenses. I wish that I could but I have this underlying nagging pain that never lets up.
Buying makes it stop for a second.
I give into the sluts that throw themselves at me, I am the softest touch and I can't even hate them, I keep going back.
I feel like a man looking at a blow up doll he needs and fears and despises.
Am I foolish to expext an end to need, its never ever daone.
Maybe I should expect it and stop dreading it.
That's what living rooms are for , right...